Tears, Cheerios, Insight, and God

 

Hi friends! It has been another week and I am so thankful it was a good week. However, all good weeks come with some stress, struggles, and high emotions. I had my first test this week in my cognitive psychology class. I knew I was prepared, but I was still incredibly nervous. During the stressful test, I felt the tension rise up in my soul. I felt frantic and I felt like I had lost all the knowledge I had studied for. Once I calmed down, I was able to proceed with the test. I had three minutes left until it would automatically submit, so to say I felt chaotic is an understatement. I felt a lot of emotions this week, and some of these emotions came out in the most interesting places. For example, I wanted a late-night snack so I tried to stir melted chocolate into my dry cheerios. Well, the chocolate was too thick and it was overflowing in my bowl. I got really emotional, but Sam came to the rescue and helped me problem-solve by putting it all in a bigger bowl. Sometimes when we get flustered we need our support system to help us when we can't seem to help ourselves or find a solution. And that is okay! Next, I just want to say that waiting for the screen to stop buffering where my grade was trying to upload was absolute death. I got the email that feedback was ready and my grade was uploaded, but waiting for the buffer was too much. I don't know what the solution would be to fix this, but something needs to happen. 

Lastly...INSIGHT and GOD!!! It is okay to have big emotions, concerns, and worries. The awesome thing about this is that God knows exactly how we feel before we even say a word. This week I felt a bit overwhelmed with what God is calling me to do in my life. I do not feel equipped. I do not feel worthy enough. I am just a single human-being-speck on this planet. What could God possibly do through me?? However, I believe that God has a vision far greater than my sight. God has it all planned out so perfectly that He uproots our definition of perfect. Just look at how God called Moses to do so many amazing things that he did not feel equipped for. God does equip us though, even if we feel uncertified in this moment. I know God will do amazing things through me, even if I cannot see how yet or see what the importance of "me" is. Yesterday some friends at the UCO Wesley came to make prayer boards with me. We got to intertwine creativity and spirituality. Sometimes it makes a world of difference to write down our prayers and visually see what we need help with. We have the absolute PRIVILEGE to be able to be in a relationship with our God. Prayer is such a fantastic way to talk to God about anything and everything and to thank Him for everything He has done. Also, it is pretty neat to go back and see all the prayers He has answered and what all He has changed--the doors He has closed along with the doors He has opened. My friends, God has an important purpose for your life. He plans things in His perfect timing and He will equip you for whatever lies ahead, even if it seems impossible. God made you for a reason and remember...God understands what you are going through before you even say a word. 

Lots of love,

Lauren