Where Did You Meet God?

Where did you meet God? I heard the song "Parking Lot" by Cochren & Co. on the radio the other day. It is about meeting God in unexpected places, like a parking lot. God comes to us in all areas of our lives, whether we expect it or not. I grew up in a strong Christian household. We always dressed our best for church, went to Sunday school, and sat through the service. I knew God, but did I really KNOW God? Our God is a relational God. He wants a relationship with us, just as we should want a relationship with Him. I know I have talked about my time in the hospital throughout high school, but I want to talk about it again. I want to share some of my journal entries I stumbled upon a while back. I completely forgot I had written them. A special person gave me a journal while I was in the hospital, and what else was I supposed to do? 

January 2nd, 20**

Weak made strong. I was in the shower tonight. I turned on my Christian playlist for the first time in a long time. The songs that came on really let me pause and think. My hair is falling out, I sang the words without realizing it. I glanced @ hope for a second. If weak are made strong, I hope He chooses me. I think. 

January 6th, 20**

I checked into the hospital this morning. I'm super confused about what's going on, but I'm sure God has it all under His control. He'll help me through this! 

January 7th, 20**

I'm sick and tired..of doctors. Of hospital food. Everything. I haven't lost hope yet. Hopefully God can give me the strength to keep moving forward. I'm doing okay. Managing. Okay.

January 8th, 20**

I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm happy. Lord help me get through this. Philippians 4:6.

January 27th, 20**

I'm on the verge of quitting. Please help me God and take over. 

February 1st, 20**

I almost gave up today. But for whatever reason I didn't. Help me get through tomorrow. 

I met God in a hospital room. I prayed to die because I was tired of the fight. I was mad and angry. Why did I have to suffer? I was ready to meet my Maker. I was confused as to why He didn't answer my prayer. I so desperately wanted to be done with the suffering of this world. I always questioned why God didn't end my suffering. As I am living the life I am right now, that question is answered. Sometimes God doesn't answer our question immediately. But He always knows what is best for us, even if we aren't open to seeing it. Now that many years have passed, I look back on these entries and have learned more about God's character and how much He loves me. One day you will look back on your situation and everything will be so much clearer. You will learn just how much God loves you and how He has always been right by your side, even if you didn't see it in the moment..even if you were blinded by anger and confusion. God meets you wherever you are--in your suffering, in your joys, in your concerns, in your trauma, in your questions, in your pain, and in your most joyous and exciting moments.