Hi friends! I know it has been a while, but I was finally able to find time to post a blog update! My birthday was earlier this month, and Sam and I went to Branson, Missouri to celebrate. We had a fantastic weekend there. We cannot wait to go back and explore the town more. I graduate in 21 days, and I can hardly believe it. I had a joyous time taking photos with a friend of mine. However, right now I am going through the ups and downs of life. The ups include being so close to graduation, preparing for my mission trip, working, and spending time with my husband. However, I have been in kind of a funk recently. To be honest, I am definitely feeling the blues. Preparing to graduate is a huge responsibility and a daunting task. 5 years went by incredibly quickly as I look back at all the hardships and fun that came with college. Starting college during the Covid shutdown really dampened my experience. Although UCO was nice, I am ready to move forward to graduate school. I have been incredibly exhausted; reading/writing/and researching for my final days as an undergraduate psychology student is A LOT. It feels redundant and almost pointless. However, I really try to counter my feelings with remembering how blessed I am to have had the opportunity to pursue a degree that I am passionate about. I don't know, I am feeling this push and pull, back and forth motion happening in my brain. My brain is going constantly, and I can't seem to turn it off. I am trying to prepare for my mission trip as well, and that is a lot of weight that I have been carrying. Every day is the same, and sometimes it is hard to see the beauty in it all. If you are in a redundant season that keeps going in circles, you are not alone! Everything may not happen for a reason, but it definitely only happens for a season. And for that, I am grateful. Every day I continually look for God and remember the sacrifice Jesus paid so that I could live the life I live. I know He has so much in store for me. I am so incredibly close to the breakthrough of this semester being over and my college career coming to an end. I am ready to recharge this summer and focus on what God has planned for me. And although I am already nervous for my graduate program to start, I know that God has good good plans. I have waited my entire life for this moment, and this moment is only the beginning. I hope and pray you find the courage and the peace you have been looking for, and that you have a breakthrough just like I am about to.
With love and a heart full of Jesus,
Lauren Mains
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